Little Girl slept 13 whole hours last night. She ate some carrots with hummus tonight for dinner, which was the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. She saw a dandelion tonight when we went for a walk and stooped down to blow the white fluff off. I helped her, and she just laughed hysterically.
There is so much more I want to write about how precious she is, how smart she is, how much she makes me laugh, how I love her even though she’s been hitting me some the past 2 days and scratched me pretty hard tonight. But for some reason I can’t think of what to say.
DSS called and they have found a family that can take both her and her older sister (who is elsewhere right now). So they said tomorrow or Friday will be her last day with us. I don’t know how to process this at all. Because as soon as I saw her I couldn’t hold back any amount of love toward her. I couldn’t hold back and love her just enough for a few days or a few weeks, the kind of measured and cautious sort of love that one should feel for a child who you know will be leaving you at some point. I just loved her completely, and so did John. She instantly became our baby, and we just wanted to hope that somehow she would stay our baby forever.
So anyway. I don’t know if it will be tomorrow or the next day when she will go to her new family. We knew that this would happen, and I am glad that she will get to be with her sister. But damn, I didn’t think it would be this hard.